Hope the co-workers like them. ;)
My Steamboat Willie!
Vanilla cupcake and buttercream frosting. One of my favorites, I've near perfected the recipe but this is the first time I've put fondant on made from scratch cupcakes. So, here it is! My Steamboat Willie... the start of something AMAZING!
Hope the co-workers like them. ;)
Hope the co-workers like them. ;)
Novelty
I think one of my favorite words in the english language is "Novelty."
Think about it, doesn't it just evoke this warm, exciting, "things are changing for the better" feeling? No?
I think it does! I like change, I know some people dread it but change is amazing and contrary to what people believe I think change turns out for the better! Well, I suppose only if you're optimistic. but I usually am, believe it or not. ;)
On a transitional note, I guess I should talk about what's been going on in my life. Give you a little briefing...
To start off... I AM A CLAM...as happy as one flippin' clam!
Whenever I'm able to contemplate how my day went and how my life is going I can honestly sigh with relief and think... "wow. LIFE. IS . GOOD." As of recently I think I've really been able to breath easier knowing that this huge weight is finally off my shoulders. For a very long time I've been overcome with this enormous amount of hurt and although my wounds are still tender I've finally stop... what's the word? oh, I know... CARING! I've really let go and allowed myself to be me. Silly, ridiculous, and snappy Joanna.
and while that Joanna never went away I always downplayed her in fear of judgements...
and now I've just stopped caring because I've figured something out... "he's gonna hate me either way!" hahahaha... and I love this man. With all my heart I do but he would never have loved me...period.
So I'm almost up that hill and I'm so ready to be completely over it. but for now, I am content.
::Breath in. Breath out:: :)
Think about it, doesn't it just evoke this warm, exciting, "things are changing for the better" feeling? No?
I think it does! I like change, I know some people dread it but change is amazing and contrary to what people believe I think change turns out for the better! Well, I suppose only if you're optimistic. but I usually am, believe it or not. ;)
On a transitional note, I guess I should talk about what's been going on in my life. Give you a little briefing...
To start off... I AM A CLAM...as happy as one flippin' clam!
Whenever I'm able to contemplate how my day went and how my life is going I can honestly sigh with relief and think... "wow. LIFE. IS . GOOD." As of recently I think I've really been able to breath easier knowing that this huge weight is finally off my shoulders. For a very long time I've been overcome with this enormous amount of hurt and although my wounds are still tender I've finally stop... what's the word? oh, I know... CARING! I've really let go and allowed myself to be me. Silly, ridiculous, and snappy Joanna.
and while that Joanna never went away I always downplayed her in fear of judgements...
and now I've just stopped caring because I've figured something out... "he's gonna hate me either way!" hahahaha... and I love this man. With all my heart I do but he would never have loved me...period.
So I'm almost up that hill and I'm so ready to be completely over it. but for now, I am content.
::Breath in. Breath out:: :)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, MOM!
The note that will be eventually written in my mom's birthday card.
Dear Mom,
When I was younger I recall you constantly making sure I was okay. Not just okay... but spectacular. You'd buy me whatever Ice Cream I wanted, you'd buy me the tiniest little toys (My Polly Pocket collection was enormous!) and you'd always take me to chuck-e-cheese just cause I had a school day off. You basically made sure that I had the world...you gave me everything I wanted but also taught me values that helped me grow into someone who would give the shirt off my back. and as I look back I constantly ask myself "how do you do the things you do???" but I suppose that's a mom secret I am yet to unlock. ;)
You gave me everything a child could ask for and as I grow older and move on in life I can't help but think how lucky I am to have had such a dynamic duo as you and dad... you guys clashed like fire and water but please know that you made 3 kids that will one day change little pieces of the world and will one day make life easier for the both of you.
Please understand that that's the battle I fight, and that's the battle that I will eventually teach Marcel and Noel how to fight.
Thank you... times the biggest number in the world, thank you.
Last Nights Dinner...
...consisted of Red Velvet and Tart Frozen Yogurt, a birthday cake cupcake, some brie, strawberry cream cheese frosting and heart crackers.
AMAAAAZING! <3
AMAAAAZING! <3
I now pronounce you...
[Michelle and Baracks] was “one of the happier weddings that I had been to,” says MacArthur, “because people understood that putting the two of them together was like putting hydrogen and oxygen together to create this unbelievable life force. Everybody knew it. We understood that together they were going to be so much more than they would have been individually.”
When blogger becomes a blogger: 4-21-2010 Edition
I have a great fear of frogs. I know I know... silly! but I think it comes from a very tragic event that happened as a little girl.
So I've been terrified of frogs ever since and now every time I feel like there's one in the area I try my hardest not to look down at the ground in fear that I would catch even a slight glimpse of it. I hate them! I really really do!!! I hate how they make me feel!
So now as an adult I fear another thing, something slightly different, but what I fear nowadays is seeing "them" I hate seeing them together or even in the same room.
Hurt is a fear like no other and man-o-man am I hurting.
So I've been terrified of frogs ever since and now every time I feel like there's one in the area I try my hardest not to look down at the ground in fear that I would catch even a slight glimpse of it. I hate them! I really really do!!! I hate how they make me feel!
So now as an adult I fear another thing, something slightly different, but what I fear nowadays is seeing "them" I hate seeing them together or even in the same room.
Hurt is a fear like no other and man-o-man am I hurting.
WOMEN WHO ROCK!
I've decided to compile a list of women who ROCK.
Woman #1: Kelly Cutrone: I love this lady's style! Kelly Cutrone owns this amazing empire in the fiercest most profitable industries, fashion. I, myself, find it difficult to work in a fake backstabbing environment and she THROWS herself in it all the while taking care of a little girl! How, Kelly? HOOOWW, DO YOU DO IT?! I just love this lady for her no bullshit yet very nurturing attitude. She's tough, SHARP AS KNIFE, personable but manages to be quirky. I'd give anything to work for this lady!!! She can rip me a new one any and every second of the day.
#2: Jillian Michael: If I weighed 300lbs I think I'd want to kill myself and this lady, well, she DOES NOT hold back. She's such a tough cookie but boy-o-boy does this lady have the right stuff to say in the loudest way possible! This lady is IT in terms of personal trainers! I think she may even give Tolentino a run for his money (haha! Jk!)
#3: Michelle Obama: I think the name itself speaks volumes. I don't think there's anyone in the world that I could speak more highly about then her! Harvard smart, trendy, articulate, caring and just simply beautiful. She just resonates perfection. No if ands or buts!
#4: Hilary Clinton: Not only is she married to a FOX (yes, I said it!) A class-A hottie, she embodies so much of who I want to be. Hilary seems so cold but goddamnit it's about fin' time a women stopped caring! and I'm not saying she doesn't (even cold blooded sharks care...) I'm just saying that she's like a dude in a woman's body and I can highly HIGHLY respect that.
Woman #1: Kelly Cutrone: I love this lady's style! Kelly Cutrone owns this amazing empire in the fiercest most profitable industries, fashion. I, myself, find it difficult to work in a fake backstabbing environment and she THROWS herself in it all the while taking care of a little girl! How, Kelly? HOOOWW, DO YOU DO IT?! I just love this lady for her no bullshit yet very nurturing attitude. She's tough, SHARP AS KNIFE, personable but manages to be quirky. I'd give anything to work for this lady!!! She can rip me a new one any and every second of the day.
#2: Jillian Michael: If I weighed 300lbs I think I'd want to kill myself and this lady, well, she DOES NOT hold back. She's such a tough cookie but boy-o-boy does this lady have the right stuff to say in the loudest way possible! This lady is IT in terms of personal trainers! I think she may even give Tolentino a run for his money (haha! Jk!)
#3: Michelle Obama: I think the name itself speaks volumes. I don't think there's anyone in the world that I could speak more highly about then her! Harvard smart, trendy, articulate, caring and just simply beautiful. She just resonates perfection. No if ands or buts!
#4: Hilary Clinton: Not only is she married to a FOX (yes, I said it!) A class-A hottie, she embodies so much of who I want to be. Hilary seems so cold but goddamnit it's about fin' time a women stopped caring! and I'm not saying she doesn't (even cold blooded sharks care...) I'm just saying that she's like a dude in a woman's body and I can highly HIGHLY respect that.
Ava Cutrone
Kelly Cutrone's daughter melts my heart every time she's featured on Kel on Earth! Love Love Looove her! I can't wait to have my own gorgeous, quirky, and sharp little girl. All in due time though ;)
I peeps you!
I myself don't celebrate Easter but I can definitely appreciate Easter Peeps. Especially when they're made into Dessert Sushi! ;)
Polly Pockets
Polly Pockets were such a big part of my childhood. I recall my mom buying me as many as she possibly could and although I vaguely remember all of them I do however remember cherishing and playing with all of them.
ah, childhood... I miss the simplicity. If only I had the knowledge of how shitty my life would be as an adult I think I would have appreciated it more. That or have killed myself. haha. jk.
Things that make me happy Part 1
Earlier I had posted something about a book about Happiness. In the spirit of that book and, well, actually being happy I've decided to dig deep and list a short list of things that make my heart go "thump thump."
1) Randomly hearing "Unwritten" or "I'm Yours" on the radio
2) Diet Coke in a can but sometimes Diet Coke in a cup with a lemon in it for KICK
3) Fancy perfect little retail bags that look like wrapped up little presents
4) Reduced Price Nordstroms jewelry from the Juniors section
5) Cute Songs like "Sweet Pea" by Amos Lee or "Love Song" by Sara Bareilles
6) Nordstrom's Bistro (Please don't get it confused with Cafe :P)
7) Spending hours at Coffee shops in front of my computer sipping a nonfat no whip mocha in a fancy tall cup
8) Colored walls (no matter what color! It could be puke green I think it still adds so much personality to a room!)
9) Airline flights! Don't laugh, but it makes me feel important knowing I'm heading somewhere for a purpose.
10) My phone says "DROOID" when I get a text
11) Lunch in great weather on a patio
12) Sushi Boats! instant gratification is THE BEST!
To Be continued... happiness is always a continuation... that's the game plan anyway ;)
1) Randomly hearing "Unwritten" or "I'm Yours" on the radio
2) Diet Coke in a can but sometimes Diet Coke in a cup with a lemon in it for KICK
3) Fancy perfect little retail bags that look like wrapped up little presents
4) Reduced Price Nordstroms jewelry from the Juniors section
5) Cute Songs like "Sweet Pea" by Amos Lee or "Love Song" by Sara Bareilles
6) Nordstrom's Bistro (Please don't get it confused with Cafe :P)
7) Spending hours at Coffee shops in front of my computer sipping a nonfat no whip mocha in a fancy tall cup
8) Colored walls (no matter what color! It could be puke green I think it still adds so much personality to a room!)
9) Airline flights! Don't laugh, but it makes me feel important knowing I'm heading somewhere for a purpose.
10) My phone says "DROOID" when I get a text
11) Lunch in great weather on a patio
12) Sushi Boats! instant gratification is THE BEST!
To Be continued... happiness is always a continuation... that's the game plan anyway ;)
FitBit
It's March 25 and I've reached a point in my life where I'm EXTREMELY ready to be fit! No... correction... HOT!
I hate to admit that simply because it seems really vain, however, I don't think anyone in the world would be oppose to looking great. Would they? Maybe I'm wrong (or maybe I'm not! haha!)
So as I mentioned it is March 25, 2010 and I'm ready to reach my goal.
Here it is!
Goal:
Weight: 115 lbs Current: 130 lbs (give or take a few Godiva chocolates)
Abs: I'm not hoping to be RIPPED. I just want them showing for once in my life. Current: not even worth mentioning :P
Arms: Like Serena Williams (okay, maybe not THAT awesome but close) Current: It's getting there. Better than before
Legs: SLIM/TONE THOSE SUCKERS DOWN! Current: Not bad, strong that's for sure but big... and that needs to go away!
I have my FitBit ready to go. My cleanse diet ready to go.
and my first meal!
Breakfast: Strawberries, yogurt, water and maybe a few carrots (coffee for sure)
Snack: Apple/100 calorie bar
Lunch: Not super nutritious but low calorie frozen meal
Snack: TBE??? (To Be Eaten)
Dinner: Spinach, vinaigrette, Chicken
Add 5 billion gallons of water and end by sleeping early and getting at least 8 hours.
Gym activities will include:
-Elliptical 30-45 minutes 5 days a week
-Tons of strength training 4 days a week
Sports to consider:
-Yoga/Palates
-Fencing again
-Tennis
I hate to admit that simply because it seems really vain, however, I don't think anyone in the world would be oppose to looking great. Would they? Maybe I'm wrong (or maybe I'm not! haha!)
So as I mentioned it is March 25, 2010 and I'm ready to reach my goal.
Here it is!
Goal:
Weight: 115 lbs Current: 130 lbs (give or take a few Godiva chocolates)
Abs: I'm not hoping to be RIPPED. I just want them showing for once in my life. Current: not even worth mentioning :P
Arms: Like Serena Williams (okay, maybe not THAT awesome but close) Current: It's getting there. Better than before
Legs: SLIM/TONE THOSE SUCKERS DOWN! Current: Not bad, strong that's for sure but big... and that needs to go away!
I have my FitBit ready to go. My cleanse diet ready to go.
and my first meal!
Breakfast: Strawberries, yogurt, water and maybe a few carrots (coffee for sure)
Snack: Apple/100 calorie bar
Lunch: Not super nutritious but low calorie frozen meal
Snack: TBE??? (To Be Eaten)
Dinner: Spinach, vinaigrette, Chicken
Add 5 billion gallons of water and end by sleeping early and getting at least 8 hours.
Gym activities will include:
-Elliptical 30-45 minutes 5 days a week
-Tons of strength training 4 days a week
Sports to consider:
-Yoga/Palates
-Fencing again
-Tennis
Who I am
Every now an again I lie in bed and think "Who have I become?"
and I think about it some more and I'm sometimes sadden by my answer. However last night was different, last night I went to bed with a smile on my face with the realizing that the Joanna I see in the mirror, the Joanna that I'm constantly disappointed in, is NOT the real Joanna. She's just a silly, naive and selfish young Joanna....
...who's still growing and learning.
I refuse to let myself believe that the real Joanna is one that cries over boys (yes, BOYS) is one that settles for a sales job and one that isn't in school.
The REAL Joanna values everyone for what they're worth, the REAL Joanna aspires to take care of her family in every way possible, the REAL Joanna calls the ideal getaway a 3rd world country, the REAL Joanna has a fire in her like no other.
That is the REAL Joanna and yesterday I was able to sleep soundly because I was able to realize my worth. and tomorrow may be dismal and gray but the day after will be spectacular, because the real Joanna says so.
So. moving forward. I will try to sleep soundly. and most definitely stop using myself in 3rd person. (haha!)
and I think about it some more and I'm sometimes sadden by my answer. However last night was different, last night I went to bed with a smile on my face with the realizing that the Joanna I see in the mirror, the Joanna that I'm constantly disappointed in, is NOT the real Joanna. She's just a silly, naive and selfish young Joanna....
...who's still growing and learning.
I refuse to let myself believe that the real Joanna is one that cries over boys (yes, BOYS) is one that settles for a sales job and one that isn't in school.
The REAL Joanna values everyone for what they're worth, the REAL Joanna aspires to take care of her family in every way possible, the REAL Joanna calls the ideal getaway a 3rd world country, the REAL Joanna has a fire in her like no other.
That is the REAL Joanna and yesterday I was able to sleep soundly because I was able to realize my worth. and tomorrow may be dismal and gray but the day after will be spectacular, because the real Joanna says so.
So. moving forward. I will try to sleep soundly. and most definitely stop using myself in 3rd person. (haha!)
The good moments
I only speak of the good moments between us and not them because their good moments will continue. They have a whole lifetime of good moments and adventures. and all I have is this, what I have now, which is barely anything. So I'm going to relish in it. I'm going to enjoy every second of him, even though I shouldn't, and allow myself to love him to the utmost of my capability because one day very soon I'll have to say goodbye and that will be the end of us and everything we were about, whatever it is.
Evaluating
There's such a big part of me that's really trying to reevaluate my life.
A big part of who I am is very goal oriented and self motivated but at the same time I can't help but ask myself all the time "what's the point?!?!?!"
A big part of who I am is very goal oriented and self motivated but at the same time I can't help but ask myself all the time "what's the point?!?!?!"
Bucket List
1. Ride around in a cruiser
2. Own & love Yorkie Terrier
3. Ride ferris wheel with someone I really care about
4. Buy all the balloons from seller to give away to kids
5. Own my own business
6. Take cliche (yet very cute) carnival style photo booth pictures
7. Meet Michelle Obama
8. Introduce parents to "bestie"
2. Own & love Yorkie Terrier
3. Ride ferris wheel with someone I really care about
4. Buy all the balloons from seller to give away to kids
5. Own my own business
6. Take cliche (yet very cute) carnival style photo booth pictures
7. Meet Michelle Obama
8. Introduce parents to "bestie"
Falsies!
I'm jumping on the bandwagon and getting some fake eyelashes. They're like a dollar for a thousand. I call that a GREAT deal! haha ;)
Rosebud Perfume Co.
I bought Lo a three pack of these lip glosses and she insisted that I take the original and OMG! Karma has totally kicked in!! I'm totally hooked on this stuff now!!!
Let's make our goal to be them
Pictured bellow is Jony Ive, Senior VP of Industrial design, and Steve Jobs, CEO of Apple Inc.
These two are the ultimate teammates, the creative brains and the business brains of Apple Inc. with them magic and miracles happen. My goal...is to find my Steve Jobs. :)
These two are the ultimate teammates, the creative brains and the business brains of Apple Inc. with them magic and miracles happen. My goal...is to find my Steve Jobs. :)
Cupcake #3: Red Velvet edition
I love my bestie but let's face the facts, rarely does he ever do anything nice for me. HOWEVER, he bought me a red velvet cupcake yesterday! Red Velvet is my favorite, I think it's his too. I love it! :)
Irredesent
Bestie, Lauren, and I got matching purses! Lauren got teal and I got a really pretty pearl iridescent.
My first pair of Tigers!
My roommate, Jordan, has a full closet of Tiger Shoes and I just bought a pair! I'm kind of excited about them! They're very cupcake-like. ;)
My Coffee Adventures!
I always seem to be at a coffee shop doing some kind of work on my days off... this day was a little more intense. Allow me to share ;)
12pm to 5pm: My drink at Peet's Coffee. No lie... AMAZING! It was a Raspberry Mocha. One of the best most artistic drinks I've ever had!!! I was so happy I got it. It would have made my day if not for something else. :)
7pm-9pm: My drink at The Coffee Bean. A Jasmin Pearl Iced Tea. It was really asian tasting! and I mean, I was totally expecting that from the name but my friend who joined me said "it taste like bathroom soap" and as I continued drinking it I thought to myself "I'm drinking bathroom soap" regardless, it wasn't bad. just something I think I needed to aquire first. It looked really cute though- purple straw and all. haha.
12pm to 5pm: My drink at Peet's Coffee. No lie... AMAZING! It was a Raspberry Mocha. One of the best most artistic drinks I've ever had!!! I was so happy I got it. It would have made my day if not for something else. :)
7pm-9pm: My drink at The Coffee Bean. A Jasmin Pearl Iced Tea. It was really asian tasting! and I mean, I was totally expecting that from the name but my friend who joined me said "it taste like bathroom soap" and as I continued drinking it I thought to myself "I'm drinking bathroom soap" regardless, it wasn't bad. just something I think I needed to aquire first. It looked really cute though- purple straw and all. haha.
I think he just pulled a Jerry Mcguire
Tonight he told me that we complimented each other. That's pretty awesome of him to have said. and... I completely agree.
There are some moments that make me love him even more.
There are some moments that make me love him even more.
RIP Andy
I've been contemplating buying a Warhol print so I did a little research and found out that he died the year of my birth tomorrow, Feb. 22. Sign much? I think so!
Marc Jacobs Daisy in the Air
I don't typically like Marc Jacobs scents but I like this one. It's sooooo Lauren Conrad. haha jk. ;)
Coffee free
I'm trying to lay off coffee for a while. It's going to be hard because I love it so much but I think it's for the best.
I've noticed that I've been drinking coffee to suppress all the sadness and discontentment I've been having as of late but that's of course not healthy. So I need to stop.
I've been thinking about it some more and I think I really need to let go of lot of what I love.
I love coffee, and I love sugar and I love him. but all of those are bad for my system.
Wish me luck.
I've noticed that I've been drinking coffee to suppress all the sadness and discontentment I've been having as of late but that's of course not healthy. So I need to stop.
I've been thinking about it some more and I think I really need to let go of lot of what I love.
I love coffee, and I love sugar and I love him. but all of those are bad for my system.
Wish me luck.
I'm tired of being penciled in
I get the fact that I've put myself in a terrible position but regardless of what terrible situation IM in the truth is... it takes 2 to tango.
I know I constantly tell myself I deserve better but maybe I don't because I put myself into this. I think what I'm trying to say is that I'm tired of being put on some ones back burner. I'm tired of being penciled in and I'm tired of asking and looking like a fool.
To all guys out there: please stop making me your backup. please stop using me. I don't know any better so if you could just be up front with me I'd really appreciate it.
I know I constantly tell myself I deserve better but maybe I don't because I put myself into this. I think what I'm trying to say is that I'm tired of being put on some ones back burner. I'm tired of being penciled in and I'm tired of asking and looking like a fool.
To all guys out there: please stop making me your backup. please stop using me. I don't know any better so if you could just be up front with me I'd really appreciate it.
Plaid cookie
Jordan got a bouquet of cookies from his parents and I'm SOOO stealing one of the plaid ones. Yum! :)
Vika Visits OC
Vika visited me in OC for the very first time.
Needless to say, just like the two of us, it was incredibly chill. We weren't really in the fancy dining mood so we just walked around my complex and town center, bought Thai Iced tea and enjoyed the beautiful OC weather drinking it outside. It was nice catching up with a good friend but I think I came to realize something.
We're both so worn down. I mean, we're fine. We're young and goal oriented but getting worn down as life keeps pulling us down.
Regardless, it was chill, cost efficient and just a great time together.
Needless to say, just like the two of us, it was incredibly chill. We weren't really in the fancy dining mood so we just walked around my complex and town center, bought Thai Iced tea and enjoyed the beautiful OC weather drinking it outside. It was nice catching up with a good friend but I think I came to realize something.
We're both so worn down. I mean, we're fine. We're young and goal oriented but getting worn down as life keeps pulling us down.
Regardless, it was chill, cost efficient and just a great time together.
3 days
It's been 3 days since I've last spoken to you and already I'm a mess. What's gonna happen when we say good-bye forever?! Sad day indeed.
"Doggy"
Anthony from the orphanage called this a doggy. It's obviously not but it's still so cute! It was muddy and most children in America would not touch this thing with a 6 foot poll but every time I saw it at Sidai it would always be in a different spot from where I last saw it. That just meant they played with the muddy little "doggy" and they loved it. I love looking at it because it reminds me of those kids and I love those kids with all my heart. Happy Valentines day. That's real love, btw. ;)
You're some kind of amazing
I looked over at you today and you made an expression that made me want to take a picture of it and keep it forever.
You may be cold-hearted, indifferent and mean but any guy that can make me feel like that is some kind of amazing.
You may be cold-hearted, indifferent and mean but any guy that can make me feel like that is some kind of amazing.
Presentation is everything
I had a really long and great conversation with my little brother Marcel today and one of the topics we had talked about was presentation. This is the perfect example. The sushi itself was TERRIBLE however presentation was kick-ass! :)
Things that break my heart #1
Sometimes I think to myself...
Maybe if I'm the best person possible then I'll find a place in your heart.
I'm slowly learning that there may not be a place no matter how hard I work my way in. That I have to keep fighting hard for your attention and that you'll never care for me the way I care for you.
It's a sad reality but a reality nonetheless.
I know you don't want to change but I don't either and it's getting harder and harder to make compromises and acting like I'm not hurt because you so blatantly don't care.
I know your personality makes you... you and I love you more than words can express.. however, you're tainting me and your gradually taking pieces of my spirit away from me.
I hope the day we say our final goodbye is one step closer to finding someone that I can have emotions with and not have to make so many compromises for... cause I think I deserve to be happy with someone who doesn't have to work hard to care for me.
I'm sure we both know that.
Maybe if I'm the best person possible then I'll find a place in your heart.
I'm slowly learning that there may not be a place no matter how hard I work my way in. That I have to keep fighting hard for your attention and that you'll never care for me the way I care for you.
It's a sad reality but a reality nonetheless.
I know you don't want to change but I don't either and it's getting harder and harder to make compromises and acting like I'm not hurt because you so blatantly don't care.
I know your personality makes you... you and I love you more than words can express.. however, you're tainting me and your gradually taking pieces of my spirit away from me.
I hope the day we say our final goodbye is one step closer to finding someone that I can have emotions with and not have to make so many compromises for... cause I think I deserve to be happy with someone who doesn't have to work hard to care for me.
I'm sure we both know that.
♥
He told me love was an inconvenience for him, that when someone loved him he had to work harder to care, or pretend to anyway.
Bottom line is, I can't be your backup. I won't be your backup. I REFUSE to be your backup... cause I think I deserve a little more than that.
Bottom line is, I can't be your backup. I won't be your backup. I REFUSE to be your backup... cause I think I deserve a little more than that.
Free Colorado Hat
I've been thinking about moving to Colorado and I think this offer takes the cake! hahaha!
Of course I'm kidding however despite Colorado being cold, as Khari said to me today, "you may be cold but your bank account will be hot!" hahaha.
Of course I'm kidding however despite Colorado being cold, as Khari said to me today, "you may be cold but your bank account will be hot!" hahaha.
ZUUUNE!!!
When I first started working for Microsoft everyone was on the Zune bandwagon and I never was. UNTIL NOW! I JUST got one and I've fallen in love with it! I mean, I get to put as much pop music as I please and I think that's super cute!
Lettuce! hahaha...
Last night one of my best friends and I were hanging out and almost everything we were saying to each other was on point. We think a lot alike and we act a lot alike. We just embody characteristics that the opposite sex typically has. You know, he's a little more indifferent and I'm a little more compassionate, he's a dude and I'm a chick, it's just biological. :P
So last night I was being silly and clowin' (like I always do. haha) and we start joking around and we both say "lettuce" simultaneously. So that's it, I think that that's proof that we're 1 person in 2 bodies. haha. Now, I'm not trying to be cute or emotional. I'm just saying... I'm a lucky girl to have met a friend that I'm THAT connected to.
That's all.
So last night I was being silly and clowin' (like I always do. haha) and we start joking around and we both say "lettuce" simultaneously. So that's it, I think that that's proof that we're 1 person in 2 bodies. haha. Now, I'm not trying to be cute or emotional. I'm just saying... I'm a lucky girl to have met a friend that I'm THAT connected to.
That's all.
Fairy tales do come true...
My mom bought this movie on VHS when I was a kid and I so fondly remember it being one of my favorite movies. The 2 protagonist of the movie were so kind hearted and giving it gave me a lot of inspiration as a child. Now, as I watched it on Netflix it's really rekindling that corny warm fuzzy feeling I had.
I think I might have found my Valentines day gifts!
It's a lollipop without a stick, a ring of flavor you can lick!" Don't ask how I still remember that! :P
Mc T-shirt
I never knew how much of a "chick thing" Grey's Anatomy was until my friend said "of course you'd like that show, you're a girl!"
I thought everyone liked Grey's Anatomy, boys and girls! I guess not...
but I suppose to all the bros out there lookin' this shirt would DEFINITELY get almost any female fans attention! It would get mine. hahaha...
I thought everyone liked Grey's Anatomy, boys and girls! I guess not...
but I suppose to all the bros out there lookin' this shirt would DEFINITELY get almost any female fans attention! It would get mine. hahaha...
Mazuri saaaaaana.
Cynthia would always be chewing on random things... plastics, grass, anything she can stick in her mouth. I guess she found it playful but I just found myself yelling at her a lot to "get it out!" (haha!) Whenever I would however Cynthia would look at me with her big bright eyes and coyly bow her head and smile. Her smile is engraved in my memory and her sweet little voice still echos in my head.
Honduras
A big concept I had to understand about Kenya was that cleanliness was near impossible, ESPECIALLY factoring having to play with kids the whole day. It was a hard concept to grasp for me but the day I walked through a 6 feet heap of garbage laughing and enjoying the company of 10 not-so-clean Kenyan children was the day I unlocked a piece of my heart. I learned that "dirt don't hurt" and that "3rd world countries were SO my thing."
So ever since coming back from Kenya 2009 I've had my heart set on going to Central America! Let's hope if I keep my eye on the prize I'll achieve this goal in 2010. Expect an application Global Volunteer Network !
For now, here's a picture of what I'm looking forward to see in person!
La Esperanza, Honduras
So ever since coming back from Kenya 2009 I've had my heart set on going to Central America! Let's hope if I keep my eye on the prize I'll achieve this goal in 2010. Expect an application Global Volunteer Network !
For now, here's a picture of what I'm looking forward to see in person!
La Esperanza, Honduras
Cupcake #1
Someone give me a wad of cash so I can buy this place, turn it around and make it not so pathetic on Yelp! ;)
http://www.yelp.com/biz/sweetspot-bakers-workshop-irvine-4#hrid:UNcxJd2GnQBd_Wq2cSmv4g/src:search/query:cupcake
p.s. The number next to the title is indicative of the fact that there will be many many MANY more cupcake post on this blog. haha!
http://www.yelp.com/biz/sweetspot-bakers-workshop-irvine-4#hrid:UNcxJd2GnQBd_Wq2cSmv4g/src:search/query:cupcake
p.s. The number next to the title is indicative of the fact that there will be many many MANY more cupcake post on this blog. haha!
HAPPYNESS-The correct spelling isn't relevant. However, the emotion it is!
Every time I go to B&N I pass this book and contemplate purchasing it. It's the most adorable book and I'm ALWAYS tempted to get it but maybe for now I'll just rely on my own thoughts to provoke happiness (or maybe I'll buy the book. Whatever. hahaha)
The Happy Book
Kids have style too... oh yes they do!
Forever 21 for Kids TOTALLY makes me want to have kids. hahaha JUST KIDDING! but I love the idea of kids that are trendier than me! hahaha.
...and VOGUE
Ever since watching The Devils Wears Prada I've had the song "Vogue" in my head.
Here's a performance by Rihanna...
...and a performance by the originator of it, Madonna!
Both SO SO fierce! hahaha!
Here's a performance by Rihanna...
...and a performance by the originator of it, Madonna!
Both SO SO fierce! hahaha!
When she was 22 the... future looked bright
There are moments when I like being elaborate (& FIERCE. haha!) and there are moments when I love simplicity. My 22nd birthday was exactly that and I LOVED every moment of it!
SF Beach overlooking the Golden Gate Bridge. It was a beautiful day!
Bay Area's own Kara's cupcakes. Sprinkles, WATCH OUT!
Such a great surprise walking into a dimmed room and finding a beaming candle on a cupcake
SF Beach overlooking the Golden Gate Bridge. It was a beautiful day!
Bay Area's own Kara's cupcakes. Sprinkles, WATCH OUT!
Such a great surprise walking into a dimmed room and finding a beaming candle on a cupcake
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