Who I am

Every now an again I lie in bed and think "Who have I become?"

and I think about it some more and I'm sometimes sadden by my answer. However last night was different, last night I went to bed with a smile on my face with the realizing that the Joanna I see in the mirror, the Joanna that I'm constantly disappointed in, is NOT the real Joanna. She's just a silly, naive and selfish young Joanna....

...who's still growing and learning.

I refuse to let myself believe that the real Joanna is one that cries over boys (yes, BOYS) is one that settles for a sales job and one that isn't in school.

The REAL Joanna values everyone for what they're worth, the REAL Joanna aspires to take care of her family in every way possible, the REAL Joanna calls the ideal getaway a 3rd world country, the REAL Joanna has a fire in her like no other.

That is the REAL Joanna and yesterday I was able to sleep soundly because I was able to realize my worth. and tomorrow may be dismal and gray but the day after will be spectacular, because the real Joanna says so.

So. moving forward. I will try to sleep soundly. and most definitely stop using myself in 3rd person. (haha!)