I'm tired of being penciled in

I get the fact that I've put myself in a terrible position but regardless of what terrible situation IM in the truth is... it takes 2 to tango.

I know I constantly tell myself I deserve better but maybe I don't because I put myself into this. I think what I'm trying to say is that I'm tired of being put on some ones back burner. I'm tired of being penciled in and I'm tired of asking and looking like a fool.

To all guys out there: please stop making me your backup. please stop using me. I don't know any better so if you could just be up front with me I'd really appreciate it.